Monday, July 18, 2016

Challenge Update!

So, I'm 2 weeks into my challenge. I had to start after the holiday because I had family in town and there was too much food to avoid. Firstly, my little accountability group has 24 people in it! It's a mixture of real life friends and mommy group Facebook friends. It's quieter on there than I had hoped, but recipes are still being shared and support is still given!

How have I been doing with it? Well... My chocolate intake is definitely LOWER than what it was. I've only had chips twice since I officially started. I have had a few snack cakes over the weekend in a moment of weakness. Other than that, I've been doing pretty good! No white bread, fried food, fast food...nothing!

I've noticed if I keep up on my water intake, I don't have time to eat junk and I don't get hungry as often (duh)... but this means up my water by A LOT (for me). I try to drink 24 oz of water between breakfast and lunch at work. Some days are great and I get in 70 oz of water before 4 pm...other days I only get 24-48 a day. There were even a couple days last week I only drank 8 oz of water ALL DAY. I know, I know! So terrible. It's better than it was I guess, but not where I need to be.

So, even as good as I've been doing, I still haven't lost any weight. I did lose 1.5 lbs in the beginning of last week but it's back already. I've realized the flaw in my challenge - just cutting out certain things doesn't really work if you are replacing them with other bad things that are not on the list.

Chris and I are struggling to work out on a regular basis. Something is always coming up that doesn't allow us to go together. We are going to have to come up with another way to do this I think. Maybe some at home, body weight workouts from or something.

I have my first fill after having the baby in about 5 weeks. I wish it was sooner but I made a promise to Chris that I would get my eating habits/lap band rules under control first. I've been so lax in following my rules that it's like I've forgotten HOW to be a good bandster. My bites are too big. I don't chew my food enough. I eat too fast. I don't measure my portions well enough. I drink more than I should when I'm eating. Basically doing everything I KNOW is wrong. This is called 'eating around the band'. I've been getting a little better at some things, but others I really am struggling with. I'm hoping to get a food scale in a couple weeks however, and looking forward to re-learning what an actual cup of food looks like.

I have a physical appointment scheduled with my primary doctor in a couple weeks as well. I told her I wanted to do some bloodwork for my vitamin levels so I can take those into my lap band doctor when I see them. I haven't had any blood drawn since I found out I was pregnant in February of 2015 so it will be interesting to see how they've changed! At that time, my vitamin D was low, as was my B12. 

I have some stressful things going on in my life right now that are probably hindering my progress a little as well. Pretty soon school will be starting and that will add to my everyday stress as well, so I can't really use that as an excuse for long.

Life, I've noticed, is always stressful and it will never be easy or calm or 'normal'.

Until next time! 

Friday, July 1, 2016

Challenge time!

Well, I got motivated from someone in my lap band Facebook group and decided to do a challenge.

This is going to be very hard for me because I have a weakness for chocolate. I literally eat it almost every day. It's everywhere at work. I crave it. It's a serious addiction for me. I really want to take my lifestyle change seriously though so I thought this would be a good kick-start of getting some of the bad stuff out of my life!

I am including crackers in with chips. Potatoes are going to be WHITE potatoes only. Healthy versions of these foods are okay. Juice from a juicer is also okay. Otherwise, I'm sticking to this list.

I've created a Facebook group that some of my friends joined and we are all going to do this together! I'm really excited for the motivation and accountability of having a group of people doing this with me. It's not just my regular Facebook friends either; I also invited the girls in my "get healthy" mom group as well! I have a whopping 15 people in my group as of now. We are going to post before and after pics, pics of food, recipe and snack ideas... So exciting!

I am allowing a 'free day' for the 4th of July and some people aren't even going to start until July 5 and that's cool too. I'm hoping to make it through the weekend and maybe the 4th without cheating at all. It's going to be hard though because I've also just started my first period after having the baby almost 9 months ago.

Time to go weigh-in for day 1!

Wish me luck!

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Back in the saddle

I think I'm ready for this.

After a baby, big move, a job change, having my second (!!!) son, and signing back up for school I'm finally ready to get back into banded life and get healthier. 4 years ago I was weighing in at 197 lbs after 2 years being banded. Now, I'm back up to 250 lbs after having babies (whoever said breastfeeding made you lose weight was a LIAR) and falling back into old, bad habits. Bad habits suck. Cravings are awful. Head hunger is my worst enemy. Finding the time and motivation to work out with kids is laughable...but I have to try.

My husband wants to try too, so we are going to attempt (again) to do it together. We worked out yesterday. This was the first workout I've done in over 2 years. I felt lost and nervous, but it felt good. I felt like I was accomplishing something. I haven't felt accomplished in a long time. I'm walking like a zombie because of it but no pain, no gain I suppose. (Maybe not as many squats next time though.)

I'm ready to do this.

I am scheduled for a fill at the end of next month. I have 4 weeks to start getting my eating habits in check and to get back into following the rules of the lap band. I've been eating too much, too fast and it shows. Not only am I not losing weight, I get stuck daily because I'm not paying attention to how small my bites are and how quickly I'm eating. I'm keeping track of that now to hold myself accountable and show my husband I have the control to NOT get stuck all the time.

The countdown to July 25th has begun!