Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Back in the saddle

I think I'm ready for this.

After a baby, big move, a job change, having my second (!!!) son, and signing back up for school I'm finally ready to get back into banded life and get healthier. 4 years ago I was weighing in at 197 lbs after 2 years being banded. Now, I'm back up to 250 lbs after having babies (whoever said breastfeeding made you lose weight was a LIAR) and falling back into old, bad habits. Bad habits suck. Cravings are awful. Head hunger is my worst enemy. Finding the time and motivation to work out with kids is laughable...but I have to try.

My husband wants to try too, so we are going to attempt (again) to do it together. We worked out yesterday. This was the first workout I've done in over 2 years. I felt lost and nervous, but it felt good. I felt like I was accomplishing something. I haven't felt accomplished in a long time. I'm walking like a zombie because of it but no pain, no gain I suppose. (Maybe not as many squats next time though.)

I'm ready to do this.

I am scheduled for a fill at the end of next month. I have 4 weeks to start getting my eating habits in check and to get back into following the rules of the lap band. I've been eating too much, too fast and it shows. Not only am I not losing weight, I get stuck daily because I'm not paying attention to how small my bites are and how quickly I'm eating. I'm keeping track of that now to hold myself accountable and show my husband I have the control to NOT get stuck all the time.

The countdown to July 25th has begun!