Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Lemonade out of lemons

Lots to talk about today!

Firstly, on the mental front, I am keeping steady. Lots of stress still surrounds me but I am dealing. I still miss my dog terribly but I do not cry every time I think about her anymore, so that's a plus. Hubby and I are slowly checking out shelters and rescues to see if another dog chooses us but we are in no hurry and don't plan to actually get another dog until we move (in the next month or so).

On Monday, I got my 3rd fill! (My Sissy took me this time and we had fun! She also enjoyed talking about poop with the nutritionist. This is not at all surprising if you know my sister.) I was very stoked about this because a week prior I was officially down 30 lbs! Then my body decided to stop pooing and I gained 3 more. The scale at the doctor's office said I had only lost 7 lbs in 6 weeks. She said that was okay, seeing as how it averages to a pound a week, but I cannot STAND how I will lose 5 pounds and gain 2-3 back. It's SO ANNOYING. Just get off and stay off weight! I talked with the nutritionist first and she didn't really tell me anything I didn't already know. I have been majorly sucking on drinking my water and taking my vitamins so I am trying to get back on that routine of downing more water and taking my multivitamins. (I think not taking my multivitamins is messing with my nails because they have been breaking so easily! Could also be that I need more good protein.) I also told her my portion sizes seemed to be almost back to NORMAL (bad!) without really affecting me. (As in, if I eat the 6-8 oz I'm supposed to I am literally still hungry.) So upstairs for my fill I went!

I saw the PA again. I talked to her about how my hunger was out of control and I was still not pooping regularly. She basically said to be more diligent with my MiraLAX and water and that should help a lot (which I already knew). So I laid on this not-meant-for-fills table and she numbed me up. It took her a few tries to find the 'entrance' to my port this time and I am actually a little bit bruised today but it wasn't super bad at the time because I was pretty numb. At my request, she put in 2 cc's of fluid. She also mentioned that normally they put in 4 cc's the first fill and she doesn't know why I didn't get that! WTF! I could have been SO much more far ahead by now! Oh well. Such is life. So now, I am at a total of 5.5 cc's in my 11 cc band. I feel like this is getting pretty darn close to where I need to be. I was on full liquids for 48 hours but I broke that about 3 hours early and had a baked potato for lunch. I ate pretty much the whole thing (minus the skin since I am still kind of healing) and was pretty full! This made me happy! I won't lie, I did eat a small cookie too :x (It was delicious!) I am only just now starting to get hungry but that is because I just worked out!

Per my title, my lemons would be the fact that my husband is not here tonight so I have NO CAR to get to the gym. I didn't work out Monday or Tuesday because I was so busy doing other things so I started feeling like a slacker and I NEEDED to work out. Then, I had an epiphany (lemonade). DUH ERIN, you have freakin' Biggest Loser DVDs you've never used! So, I did my Biggest Loser Cardio Max DVD tonight! I only did the level 1 and it kicked my butt...in a good way. I was soaked in sweat (sexy!) so I know I got something accomplished. Now I have to get this bottle of water down and find me some protein for dinner!

Over and out little buddies.

EDIT: I forgot to mention, being so busy, I missed my support group meeting last night! (But I got to see my Dad instead!) I was a little bummed, but I will be there next month for sure!

Sunday, August 7, 2011

How much??

This post is something I forgot to mention in my last post. This is going to be mostly for the potential bandsters that read this blog. I am going to talk about MONEY!!! Everyone on LapBand Talk always wants to know how much other people's surgery costs. So, I am going to give you a rundown of my numbers.

The bills I received are as follows: Pre-op testing, pre-op radiology, and the actual surgery. This does not include my primary doctor bills for my physical nor does it include the mandatory psychological evaluation that is not covered by my insurance (that was $250, btw).

My insurance is TriCare Reserve Select. (My husband is in the National Guard.) And you will see why I waited until I got this specific insurance to have my surgery!

Pre-Op testing total cost: $4581.00
After insurance I paid: $76.57

Pre-Op radiology total cost: $28.00
After insurance I paid: $2.12

Actual surgery total cost: $37,320.90
After insurance I paid: $25.00

Grand total surgery cost: $41, 929.90
Grand total after insurance: $103.69

No, that is NOT a mistake...I paid $25 for my surgery! I had done my research on other people with my insurance and was hoping my outcome would be the same, but of course you can never make assumptions with insurance pricing. I was so shocked and happy when I got my bill I actually laughed out loud. Needless to say, I have already paid all the bills for my surgery off. :) It's a pretty good feeling, I'm not gonna lie. I do feel a little guilty when I think of the other people who have to pay out of pocket, but I waited and did my research and planned accordingly.


In other news, I worked out this morning! I am dog sitting for my sister this weekend and they decided I should get up at 7:30 this morning. So, I got up, took care the dogs, got changed, and went and worked out! This was my first morning workout...ever. It was nice and empty. There was only one person there besides me and that was really nice. I did my regular workout that I usually do and thankfully, after not working out for 3 whole weeks, I was still able to do everything I was doing before and a couple extra reps on a few machines! Once I get the money for some new workout shoes I will pick up my cardio too. I can't do it right now because my cheap Walmart shoes are NOT working. I can't walk for more than 15 minutes without my feet just KILLING ME. And it's not pain, its from rubbing...which is totally lame.

I'm still very sad about my dog and still have quite a bit of stress in my life, but I am taking it all one day at a time. I think working out helped with my stress (as I knew it would...why is it so easy to stop working out for periods of time even though you know it feels good afterwards and helps in every aspect of your life?). Keeping busy helps me not think too much on things so that's what I'm trying to do. We will be packing up our house soon and moving (yay!) so that should keep me pretty busy for the next month or so. As Dory would say, "Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming!" So that's what I'm doing, yo. If you need me, I'll be in the deep end.

Friday, August 5, 2011

It's ALIVE

It would seem that I have been slacking, but in reality, I have not! These past 3 weeks have been full of goings-on for myself. They include: visits from family and friends from out of state, family drama, job drama, birthday parties (for my husband!) and most upsettingly the loss of my dog, Roxie (who's adorable face is my profile picture). I don't have an urge to talk about any of these things, but suffice to say I have been more stressed than I can remember. This also has attributed to the fact that I have slacked off in the exercise department and have not worked out in almost 3 weeks. I just have not had time to juggle life, visiting friends/family, and working out. Things should be going back to normal as of today, so I'm hoping to get back into the swing of things today or tomorrow.
My weight has fluctuated a bit, but I was (at one point) finally past that stupid 20-pound mark and was actually down 26 pounds! I haven't even thought about scales or calories or water consumption in the last 2 weeks (although portions sizes I can never forget, but I could go for another fill on my next appointment on Aug 22). I know I am up a few more pounds since I last checked but I am not worrying about it until I get back into my work-outs. All of this stress has also NOT helped the constipation problem. I am happy to say, it's finally getting better now that things are slowing down (and the fact that I went to the Brickyard 400 on Sunday and did nothing but drink water)!
I am determined to get back on track now that things are slowing down and getting back to 'normal'. (At least as normal as they can be with the big hole my dog left in my house and my heart when she died...I am still very heartbroken as it has only been 3 weeks and it was very sudden and unexpected.) I still have an end goal to all this and I am trying not to lose sight of that. I also determined if I can lose an average of 10 pounds a month for the next year I will be 10 pounds from my goal of 130 pounds and I really feel like if I could lose 120 pounds I would be okay with that weight before trying to start a family. But that is a whole other chapter in this blog so I will save that talk for about 10-12 months down the road.
I really haven't even gotten on a computer at home since my last blog post, nor have I had time to contemplate anything profound or even somewhat interesting. I did, however, get a new cell phone (iPhone FTW!) and am able to update my info on the Realize band website from my phone now! Of course, I haven't lately for the reasons mentioned above, but I can do it from my phone now and don't have to worry about using my big computer to mess with it. (I usually use my Netbook and it is too small for the java script screen that pops up when you sign in.) I'm sorry I don't have much else interesting to say, but I wanted to stop in and say hello and give a quick update on my progress (or lack of right now, I guess). Hopefully, I will come back in a couple weeks with some NSV (nonscale victories) and other awesome things to share!
Until then.

Sorry if my post was a downer, but I really am trying to stay positive!